Thanz.

Well, am a Catholic but I'm not a strict follower. I don't read the bible...I don't say the rosary and much more but I do pray when I'm really down and in need of help. How funny, MANY pray to Him when they're in need of help but hardly do we say 'thank you' to Him. We get so busy with our own happiness which in turn has become selfish. We blame Him when our prayers were never answered and thus causing us to hate Him or to distance ourselves from Him. OK, enough of me preeching since usually the priest does that.

Anyway, when I was in the shower just now...I thought about it and I nearly cried. I was touched by what God had done. I was being selfish and I never really thanked Him properly. I know I have but never a proper way of thanz.

In 2004/5, I was hoping for Jarrett to get his Net back coz I missed a good friend and a week later, he popped up on Yahoo Messenger.

In 2006, I'd been hoping and praying so hard for Eric to be alive and to reply my E-mails and messages for over 9 months and he did. I wanted an answer why he hadn't replied and he did but then, when he returned...he told me he was with the SAS still...and I was suspicious about certain things and thought maybe he's married and such and had me on a game or something. I did pray to God, if Eric were to disappear, and never to reply to me, I guess in a way God was sending me a message or protecting me from being hurt by him, God didn't want me to wait for Eric and be upset while waiting for his reply. Indeed..Eric disappeared in April this year, 2007. I did yearn for him but it wasn't as bad as I was during the 9 months. During those 9 months, I kept waiting and waiting and hating God and blaming Him about why hadn't Eric replied? Asked meself whether it was worth even praying? In the end, I still continued to pray...and those prayers were answered.

In 2007, He kept me mind off Eric by being happy and looking forward to a dream which eventually came true. In fact it wasn't just one dream but two dreams and many other dreams. He made me dream of going to the Netherlands possible which I'd planned 3 years ago. I managed to meet the guy whom I have been liking so much and had fallen for him. God let me have an awesome time there too...It was really nice that God did answer my prayers about Frank...a great guy whom I adore and love and care and cherish and so much more. The man whom I will treasure. I am VERY thanzful for what God had done.

I remembered praying to God to give me the courage to let me mom know that I got the plane tix without her knowing and that she wouldn't be in a fit. Well...she wasn't : ) I also prayed to him that I would survive and finish my DCS course well. Prayed that my final transcript would be alright and it was way better than that!

Most recent, I prayed to God for getting a job...be able to find one and I did. : ) I hope I'll be liking it.

Truly, I have so many wants and dreams to happen and I live on dreams because they give me hope and happiness. Frank is my dream...my love and happiness of what God had given me. I'm taking everything one step at a time...and go with the flow...but I know there will be some downs whereby I have to face and I just hope it wouldn't be anything horrifying which would cause me to meet God so soon.

Anyway, I want to say a BIG BIG THANZ to God for answering my prayers. I'm very grateful. I remember those little things He had done. Even when Dennis didn't turn up, at least he got to let me know who are true or not being true to me. Once again, I thanz you...


Christine.