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Saturday, June 25, 2005

Am I Trying Too Hard?

Well...it seems like I'm always the one wanting to wait for the guy to come on. I don't know why...it is great when someone waits for you, if you know what I mean. Then again, I thought to myself, the guy is also waiting for me to come over but how long can he wait? It is going to be TWO FREAKING years...No guy has that amount of patience...PLUS, which guy is willing to wait for me? Doubt a single one.

I do think when one tries hard to get me, he won...and when we are one, I try so hard to be great and perfect in it and then it all seems like they don't really care as much as they do in the beginning. I mean like trying hard now...OK, this seems confusing...maybe I should explain. Beginning he tries hard to get you and then once the two are together, he doesn't try that hard than you are...and then soon, you feel like you're being taken for granted and after that, he'll ditch you or hurt you. OK...I know it doesn't happen to all but so far, it has happened to me like eh...two to three times?

Now about Mr Coburg, I don't know...I'd waited for him for five days and I understand his situation but I have always been looking forward to the weekends because somehow I know he would have a break at least. Today I wanted to wake at 10:30AM but I thought maybe he would be on about 11 plus or maybe won't be on so I continued to sleep. When I logged on at 11:33AM, there was an offline message from him and he stated he would be back later and that offline was at 10:50AM. I regretted, I should have woken up earlier and now it is 1:48PM and I'm still waiting for him to come on...My parents actually asked me if I would like to go out with them for brunch but I said, 'No' because I wanted to wait and not miss a single sec away from here just incase he would come on. I waited...and waited...he didn't come on. I know he is probably sleeping now but somehow I'm afraid that while I'm waiting patiently for him, he is probably being called away again. I don't know...I really don't know, while I was eating my meal, I was thinking whether am I trying too hard and just forget all about it. You know what I mean? Just freaking give up emailing him nearly every day and waiting for him. It is going to be hard because part of me surely would want to continue doing that. I'm a little lost now...I keep thinking about him and whenever he is on, I really feel so happy and not alone...I wish I was strong but I'm not. I once was strong and least cared about relationships or even the guys I like. I freaking didn't care about them and such but now...I've become TOO sensitive and worry too much over crappy things.

TO SHALINI: I can't seem to talk to you because you are overly busy and it is difficult to talk about it but since you do read my bloggy at times, I guess this is the only way you could know. I'm so bored now...really bored and moody.


Christine.

Wish my sis was here now...

posted by CHRIS.TINE | 1:57 pm

2 Comments:

Blogger intuition said...

hey chris u cheer up kkz... take care and i'll see ya on fri together with shalini...

10:28 am  
Blogger intuition said...

anyway this is jean here... love yas...

10:28 am  

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