Am I Trying Too Hard?

Well...it seems like I'm always the one wanting to wait for the guy to come on. I don't know why...it is great when someone waits for you, if you know what I mean. Then again, I thought to myself, the guy is also waiting for me to come over but how long can he wait? It is going to be TWO FREAKING years...No guy has that amount of patience...PLUS, which guy is willing to wait for me? Doubt a single one.

I do think when one tries hard to get me, he won...and when we are one, I try so hard to be great and perfect in it and then it all seems like they don't really care as much as they do in the beginning. I mean like trying hard now...OK, this seems confusing...maybe I should explain. Beginning he tries hard to get you and then once the two are together, he doesn't try that hard than you are...and then soon, you feel like you're being taken for granted and after that, he'll ditch you or hurt you. OK...I know it doesn't happen to all but so far, it has happened to me like eh...two to three times?

Now about Mr Coburg, I don't know...I'd waited for him for five days and I understand his situation but I have always been looking forward to the weekends because somehow I know he would have a break at least. Today I wanted to wake at 10:30AM but I thought maybe he would be on about 11 plus or maybe won't be on so I continued to sleep. When I logged on at 11:33AM, there was an offline message from him and he stated he would be back later and that offline was at 10:50AM. I regretted, I should have woken up earlier and now it is 1:48PM and I'm still waiting for him to come on...My parents actually asked me if I would like to go out with them for brunch but I said, 'No' because I wanted to wait and not miss a single sec away from here just incase he would come on. I waited...and waited...he didn't come on. I know he is probably sleeping now but somehow I'm afraid that while I'm waiting patiently for him, he is probably being called away again. I don't know...I really don't know, while I was eating my meal, I was thinking whether am I trying too hard and just forget all about it. You know what I mean? Just freaking give up emailing him nearly every day and waiting for him. It is going to be hard because part of me surely would want to continue doing that. I'm a little lost now...I keep thinking about him and whenever he is on, I really feel so happy and not alone...I wish I was strong but I'm not. I once was strong and least cared about relationships or even the guys I like. I freaking didn't care about them and such but now...I've become TOO sensitive and worry too much over crappy things.

TO SHALINI: I can't seem to talk to you because you are overly busy and it is difficult to talk about it but since you do read my bloggy at times, I guess this is the only way you could know. I'm so bored now...really bored and moody.


Christine.

Wish my sis was here now...

Day 22 in MEL: Last day in Melbourne

Well...woke up about 10 plus and later we're planning to go to Myers because sis wanted to get a book by Dan Brown. Erm...a shuttle bus will come and get us from the apartment at 1PM to send us to the airport.

This is the last time I'll be seeing Melbourne and then wait a few years later then I'll say 'Hello' to it again. I'll just going to miss the shopping and the eating LOL!

Erm...Oh yeah, I've managed to finish my 3rd story last night...so YAY! (Shalini) Oh yes...I think it is one screwed up story, the ending isn't really good coz I don't feel satisfied at all. Well there are forty-two pages in it. Er...thatz about it.

Hello and Goodbye from Down Under!

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

Day 21 in MEL: Last Day Shopping

Well...today is my last FULL day and night in Melbourne. Now I don't feel like leaving this place but before I was wanting to leave badly. One thing great about this place is the shopping and eating lol...I don't know why they call Singapore as Shoppers Paradise. Maybe it is the Great Singapore Sale?

Anyway, today in the afternoon we went to Chapel Street and had lunch at Grill'd. Both of us had burgers called Chicken Licken. Well...we tried searching for Cafe Greco and had Chocolate Tiramisu Cake. It was yummy but filling.

We headed back to the city, Flinders Street to take a tram down to Bridge Road and there, we went to Accessorize and got a hat (AUS$20 but it cost only AUS$ 6 due to 70% off) and two stuffs...we walked about...and then headed back to the apartment. Pretty much thatz about it.

Tomorrow afternoon, I'll be leaving Melbourne...so itz going to be half a day in Melbourne.

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

Day 20 in MEL: Nothing Much

OK...today...NOTHING MUCH...

Snapped the places I wanted and the things I wanted. Thatz all...

Eric emailed...I am VERY pleased to know he is alright.

I left two more days in OZ...tomorrow will be my last day in MEL and my last night too...We're planning to go to Bridge Road...my favourite!

Hmm...I'm struggling in my story, trying to finish it...I know none is really excited to know about the story except for one *looking at Shalini*

We prepared dinner today and sis did the most. Beef stew with pasta and some boiled xiao bai cai (veg) Was good...not bad.

Thatz all for today folks!

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

Day 19 in MEL: Snap Snap!

After talking to Jar, I had my shower and headed out with sis. Went walking about looking for Queen Street just to take McCloud Shoes. Well...we walked a lot from one street to another and one street can be VERY long. Take Queen Street as an example or La Trobe Street or even Lygon Street. Anyway...Queen Street and King Street are sort of the CBD area in Melbourne.

Well...after that we tried to find a stop where the City Circle Tram (free ride) were but because of some reconstruction going on, thus we don't know where exactly is it. In the end, we hopped onto Tram 96 and headed back to the centre of the city. Actually that ride isn't free...got to pay but eh...no one really bothers hehehe

OK, so we walked all the way to Flinders Street where St Paul's Catherdral was, I got in and it was beautiful but dark and I couldn't use flash. URGH...well...snap snap here and there. Well...I snapped Federation Square too which was just across the road. Anyway, we walked all the way to the next catherdral which was St Patrick's Cathedral but on our way, I got to snapped, Hotel Windsor. Well anyway when we got to the cathedral, I got to have a look inside and it was very nice...not bad and it was located at Cathedral Place. Well...hearing it from sis...I guess Europe's cathedrals are much WOW.

Just a walk across the road, we got to the Parliament House and snapped some pics and then snapped the Princess Theatre. OK...and then we walked further to Melbourne Museum and on our way there, I snapped a fountain that is like for shower hehehe. Well, when we got there, I snapped some more pics of the fountain and such.

We headed back and then rested for a while. It was dinner time so we left the place about 5:30PM and walked to Chinatown. We ate at that Shanghai Restaurant again. Well...walked back and decided to head to Lygon Street for some Gelato. I had cone single which have TWO scoops so I had Mango and Strawberry flavours. Sis had Baileys and Green Tea. Each cost AUS$3.50 : )

Returned about 7 plus PM and then got online for a while to do some emailing and then watched a little TV. I did my story...only about two to three pages and thatz really slow and pathetic so I better get started on it again and fast.

WOW...am leaving this Friday. Just two more days here...anyway, thatz about it so...

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

Day 18 in MEL: The Great Ocean Road

Hehehehe...I just returned from my trip (The Great Ocean Road trip) which was just a day. It cost AUS$75 per person.

We left the apartment about early 7 plus in the morning and walked all the way to Market Street where we waited for the coach. It was a LONG and Winding Road...dum dum da...(The Beatles). Nice...the countryside was fascinating and beautiful. I got to see soooooo many black moo moos (cows) and some brown ones and black+white. I also saw white bah bahs (sheeps). It was so hilly and lotz of greenery.

We went passed by Geelong whereby it had a good port but Melbourne beat to it. They could have become successful but because of the sandbar thus they couldn't. Geelong has 200, 000 over people. We head to Bells Beach, it is world famous for Ripcurl (a brand) and for surfers. After that we went to Lorne Beach where we had morning tea and Lipton's normal tea was bleah!

The coach drove up some road where koalas live, I took two pics of them :D We stopped at Cape Patton Lookout for just 5 minutes. Lunch at Apollo Beach, well...I didn't eat anything but I bought two nice postcards and a fridge magnet. I just had Orange Juice. Oh Apollo got its name from a ship that sank there in 1800s.

We got to Mait's Rest Rainforest Walk...it was AWESOME! 100 times better than Singapore's mini rainforest aka Bukit Timah Hill (Nature Reserve). Part of it was Eucalyptas and the other side was the rainforest. The trees were great and sadly one of the tree was hollow in the centre but they blocked the hole after they found a couple having *ahem* yeah that. Well...he said it could fit 31 people in there! Interesting...

Next was, The Twelve Apostles but not really 12 but only 8 of them...no idea what has happened to the other 4 :P Well..the sight was fascinating..GREAT!

Just a few minutes drive to Loch Ard Gorge, VERY interesting story...it was about a ship that sunk there in 1878. There were 50+ people onboard the ship and the captain tried to avoid it but steering away but the wind and current were too strong. Thus, they tried to anchor but they could for the sand was too soft and it was all too late as they crashed and sunk slowly. There were only two survivors and they were only 18 years old. A boy named Tom something managed to swim himself to a cave and then the next morning he heard someone shouting for help. He saw a girl clinging on one of the chicken crates(I think). Her name is Eva, she was from Ireland, she came along with 8 others from her family because her father had Tuberculosis and would like a warmer climate. Anyway, she was only the sole survivor in her family and she couldn't swim, Tom went out and swam to her; rescuing her and brought her to the cave. He went wandering about and saw a bottle of brandy and drank some. He shared some with Eva too hehehe and our guide, David (guide and driver, he is great and funny...really friendly) said he had probably rubbed some on her to keep her warm :P

Anyway, he wanted to get help so AMAZINGLY he climbed up the cliff and tried to find help. He managed to and they rescued Eva. Tom was a hero but on the contrary, at that time it wasn't nice for a guy to be alone with a girl unless they were married so, he wanted to compromise that and decided to propose to Eva.

UNfortunately, he didn't get the chance to because Eva had left OZ for Ireland, it was too painful for her to think about the tragedy. She wed someone in Ireland and had three children. They lived happily ever after and as for Tom, he became captain of some ships and survived many erm shipwrecks but he died at 49 years old. Single.

Thatz the story...I got to go down to the sandy area...it was WOW! I also took pic of the cave well...I didn't walk further in because it was difficult...the sand was too SOFT. Next one was London Bridge! Well...London Bridge was really nice before it broke off in the middle thus looking somehow like Loch Ard Gorge's blow hole. THe middle part collapsed on 15th January 1990 and fortunately no one was killed. The tour group could have crossed but *PHEW!* lucky but this couple were unluck coz they were trapped on the other end so chopper had to rescue them. The media chopper got to them first and journalists tried to interview them but after they found out that they could rescue them because they (media) didn't have the license to rescue. So the couple told them to go away. Once they were rescued, they drove off quickly...reasons why...he was with another woman (not his wife) and secondly he was taking a cigi? Didn't want his boss to know..(I couldn't get that one actually) anyway...how true can this be? I don't know.

It was so dark, so we had dinner at Colac...a suburb area. I had McDonald's Fillet O' Fish Meal.
It was A LONG journey back.

TAKE CARE!

VEEL PLEZIER!

Christine.


PS: Last night, it was my first time going to a Pub...the pub's name is Cookies. It was OK...I just had orange juice. Oh yeah...ironically, Melbourne/OZ has been nice to me...since I'm leaving soon. Maybe it would like me to visit this place again?

Day 17 in MEL: St Kilda's Beach AGAIN!

AHHHHH TODAY IS THE TWELFTH! NICE NUMBER!

Woke up late today, we went to St Kilda's beach and it was such a nice wonderful weather. The sky was clear and the sun was shining. It was simply perfect. Well...we had the Fisherman's Basket and sat at the same place. We sat there, enjoying the cool breeze, seagulls 'singing' and the two doggies chasing the ball. We took pics and so far there are like 196 pics I think (doesn't mean I'm going to show you people ALL 196 pics lol).

After that, we headed to Acland Cakes where we had a slice of Fruit Baked Cheesecake and I had Spring Valley's Apple Juice and sis had mocha.

Well...then we headed back to the city and it was getting sort of dark as sunsets at 5 plus. Got online and checked my Yahoo Mail like I always do like for everyday...and today, I GOT EMAIL! From who? ERIC! Ahhhhhh...I'm SO over the moon...I could start singing U2's It's A Beautiful Day... I am really so happy to receive his email and it really lightens my life up. Somehow I feel so alive again.

OK...no plans for later I think...tomorrow, we'll be waking REALLY early as we're going to THE GREAT OCEAN ROAD! :D

Thatz about it. I'll be returning to SG this coming Friday and I know Martijn and Robin had probably sent something to me! Hopefully it is there...

TAKE CARE!

VEEL PLEZIER!


Christine.

Day 16 in MEL: IKEA & then Bridge Road

OK, I woke up early coz straight it came onto my mind was, 'Is Tall Guy on?' and 'Will there be an email from Eric?' well...I was wrong.

I got an email from Martijn :D and then I checked Yahoo and I received two emails from Jar. After that I got to chat to Jar for some time...

Showered and then sis and I went to IKEA. On our way, I posted a postcard to Tall Guy. Well...not too bad, the erm place is pretty similar but I think SG's better. Hmm...but the IKEA cafe is better than SG's because, it is MUCH bigger and the warehouse too. I took pics of it.

Anyway, after IKEA, we headed for Bridge Road where we met sis' friends. I got my orchid hairpin...just for AUS$1 and then I got a guy polo t-shirt with a Griffin emblem sewn on for AUS$19.95. I like it a lot but it isn't for me or anyone. It is for my guy...whoever that is. Yup, pretty much I'm keeping it till he comes (whoever that is lol). It is L size and from Cotton On by the way. Navy blue colour :D

OK, so we headed to the city after that coz sis needed to do her work. Before we headed back to the apartment we did some grocery shopping and thatz about it.

Oh by the way, when I was at Cotton On, I saw a cute good looking guy...reminded me a little of Tall Guy but much better looking lol. Doesn't matter anyway.

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

PS: It has been 5 days and he hasn't emailed. Do you think I should send an email to Eric to let him know that I'm worried and that I have been waiting?

Day 15 in MEL: Bridge Road

Woke up early, glad Mr Berendsen said 'hiya' but still...he took me for granted. It has been four days and Eric hasn't emailed. I'm really SO upset over these two guys. I want to break down and cry but my sis is around and I can't. The only time is when I'm in the shower.

Well, anyway we went to MNG and I got a nice tube top. It was an odd green and sis got a denim jacket from there. After that we headed for Bridge Road and shopped, I didn't get anything from there but sis did. Hmm...went to McDonald's to have lunchy and then we looked around some more. Head back to the city via tram. I bought some souvenirs from some OZ souvenir shop and then we head back via tram.

Now am back. REALLY moody...this is a terrible feeling, all I needed was an email from Eric but I didn't receive.

Tell me how am I to complete this miserable knight story when the two guys just brought my life down. Am in no mood.

Anyway, we'll be skipping dinner and probably head to Crown Hotel where we would have cakes at Cafe Greco. Well...hopefully we head there.

Thatz all for today. SCREW LIFE!


Christine.

OK, I just returned 12:20AM from my sis' friends' apartment. Went to Cafe Greco with them. It was nice to meet them and we ate cakes. I had tummyache. After that, we headed to their apartment and it was nice hearing and talking. It was nice to see their apartment too. They're really nice and friendly people. Pretty much it was cool and it has sort of cheered me up. Somehow I didn't feel lonely...the irony lol.

Tomorrow...OFF TO SWEDEN! I mean...IKEA!

Day 14 in MEL: Smith Street

Well, we went to Spencer Street to pay the fine and then we headed to Smith Street (via tram). Lotz of little shops and erm mostly they are sports wear. Went to Roxy and got a nice top for AUS $10 and a pair of pants for AUS $20. Cheap eh?

After that, we headed back to the city where we decided to have dinner in Chinatown. Tea House whereby I have Lemon Grass Chicken with egg and rice. As for drink, it was Ribena with lemon Oooooolala...nice nice. Been a long time since I had Ribena.

We went to MNG, ah...nice tops but I didn't get any as sis got her denim 3/4 pants. Hmm...other then that...we returned.

It was a nice day out and good walking exercise. Erm...but dinner was sort of unhealthy, no VEGETABLE!

Later we're going to watch ICE AGE! (on me laptop)

Thatz about it.

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

PS: It has been three days and Eric hasn't emailed. I'm a little worried but I'll keep telling myself that he is VERY busy running about here and there.

I'm still upset at Mr Berendsen. He has changed...firstly, eversince I came to OZ...it hasn't been like easy to come on but he never seem to appreciate my presence. Secondly, yesterday he said something which sort of hurt my feelings. Maybe I should be like him...'I got to go' and then just leave without a 'take care' and 'goodbye'. As yesterday he said to me, 'Do you ever get bored replaying the tape each time?' it was a sarcastic remark because I kept saying, 'Take care and see you around'. Anyway...he is not interested in me but I can't help being hurt when I like him. I can't really cheer up coz Eric hasn't mailed. I'm neither here nor there.

Shalini...she hardly is on nowadays. When I need someone; they're not there. So...I'll just let my mind wander off to some other happy land if it is able to find it. If not, my only solution...JAR!!! I'm going to pour it out on you...Nah, I'll spare you coz you have your own to handle.

Oh yeah, the B.I.T.A. driver finally sent a cheque to sis but in her freaking letter she said she was only willing to pay 50% of it. She stated she was only willing to pay for the repair and NOT a new one. Ah...truly W.A.B.I.T.A.

B.I.T.A. --> Bitch (or Bastard) In The Arse
W.A.B.I.T.A. --> What A Bitch (or Bastard) In The Arse

Day 13 in MEL: One boring entry

OK, this entry is simply going to be boring so, you can turn back while you still can. I have nothing much to say as I'm doing nothing much today.

I slept late last night about 5 plus OZ time. Was fun talking to Mr Harteveld for we talked about Mythological Gods of the greeks and Romans. For Mr Berendsen...I have no idea whatz wrong or going on. Talking to him isn't as great when I was in SG. He doesn't seem to appreciate my presence...I mean, how often do you see me online when I'm in OZ? I shouldn't take the initiative to be online, MSN just to talk to him. Might as well...crash in for bed. This is really upset and disappointing. I don't think he likes me anymore because if someone who likes you, he wouldn't take your presence for granted or even take AGES to reply. Eric doesn't do that but now am not so sure about that. Everyone is so distracted : ( I would like some attention here, online as in...(except Jar...I appreciate the emails, keeping me alive lol)

I woke about 2:10PM and then 3 plus I got onto Jar's letter...spent more than 30 minutes to do it...yeah, coz I think whatever I need to state in any emails.

Please end this day ASAP and start a new one whereby I could go out with sis. We would be visiting the TWELVE (nice number) Apostles...I want to visit the ZOO. I haven't been to the zoo for a freaking long time. I haven't been to SG's Zoological Garden for like 13-14 years? Thatz VERY long...all I can remember were the snakes being on displayed behind the glass windows. You know how it looks like when you're walking down the street and see this jewellery shop and has small display windows with black drop background and just a jewellery set for each window. Thatz all I could remember of the snakes and nothing much.

OK, I have enough say now...I shall do my story. If anything interesting happens which I doubt, I'll update it in later...

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

PS: Sorry...typo error in Jar's email...today is the 8th so today is her birthday. Hope you have fun.

See...I got SO FREAKING bored thus I decided to draw draw...something Australian.

Day 12 in MEL: Today's Entry is Dedicated to...

JAR! Well...I have no plans for today and I'm staying in again so yup, I have nothing much to type about. Don't worry Jar, hardly do anyone read me bloggy...pretty much, I'm going to talk about YOU hehehehe.

But first let me tell you about my evening dinner, sis and I went to have Italian food! WOOHOO...we had lasagne and pizza - mozarella cheese, olive (it was so salty compared to the ones in SG), mushrooms! I had Strawberry milk shake and sis had cuppucino. Our bill was AUS$23.50. Not too bad. By the way, the restaurant's name is Cafe Correto. Thatz about it now I think they're showing CSI after that do do story.

By the way this is DAY 12...nice number and yet 10 more days to go MUAHAHAHA...

Well, it all started in June 2000 and I met this guy in Yahoo Dominoes and we were playing in fours and he claimed to be 15 years old. He was really smart and still IS, unfortunately (am kidding :P) He added me to his Yahoo Mess list and we started to talk. He told me the truth that he wasn't 15 but only 11. He was afraid that no one would talk to him since he was so young and IS still young now. (There's no hurry to grow up, Jar...trust me.)

He is one sociable and friendly guy and talks well at the age 11. When I was 11, I was dumb like anything...not so smart. He wasn't shy to say that he is intelligent but rather proud of it too but now, he knows he is smart but much more erm, what do you call it? Er...*cracking my head* Well...he doesn't boast about it anymore but this guy, urgh...will you quit giving yourself such high standards...your marks is like VA VA VOOM! :( Kind of made me feel lowly then again...I'm proud that you're FREAKING smart so please influence me to be smart lol.

I don't know but we usually talk during weekends because he has school and such and I remember him, rushing off for church to serve for mass. Well...then he went missing because he lost the net and pretty much we kept in touch via email. I kept emailing to him like nearly every day about my day. I know he just brisk through it but I was and still am really excited and happy to see his email in my INBOX. It was really difficult when he doesn't have the net and for one moment last year 2004, I went a little crazy coz I couldn't take it wen my best friend wasn't really there, no replies...when there were problems...he wasn't there. I nearly hated God for doing such a thing. I went to church and cried to myself but I kept it low so my parents wouldn't notice. HA! Early this year...January 12th...what a NICE number, GUESS WHO'S BACK, BACK AGAIN...JAR! I remember I was looking at the bottom right corner of my screen, hoping that how nice it would be to see his name pop up there. Two days later during Enterprise Skills II class, his named popped and WOW...I couldn't believe me eyes...I was so happy.

Pretty much, now is all fine and he is about to have his exam soon so I wish him to have fun in doing them. I know it would be like a breeze for him BUT please don't put such high standards on yourself. By the way, congratulations for scoring high in Spanish oral. Alright, I shall email to you right now...

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

PS: CRAP...am a little annoyed with Mr Berendsen...I changed Gabrielle --> Marilyn because he didn't like the name Gabrielle. I could put Danielle as his and Gabrielle as Mr Coburg but it doesn't sound nice. Well...then he wanted me to REPLACE Mr Coburg to Michael, his best friend's name! NO WAY am I going to replace that name.

Day 11 in MEL: Managed to stick something...

OK, woke up this morning and stoned a little. We have forgotten to Skype with my parents last night and they waited till midnight for us. Mom emailed sis about that and also mentioned that something had happened on Saturday. I really hope it isn't any bad news because I'm not in the mood for it and I'll probably can't handle anything now. I'm too weak...mentally and probably physically.

I went to BIG W to get plastic putty and ram plug BUT the freaking ram plugs are too small! I went to SafeWay and got sis' ham. I went round and round looking for Reject Shop and finally found it. NO PASTA sauce only the white type but no tomato paste. Returned to the apartment and got online. It was so great to see him online and I got to talk to him for a while. He seemed a little distracted but he is still so sweet and caring.

After talking to him I started to get started with work and tried to join the toilet paper holder to the wall. Now it looks like SHIT...I mean, I'd managed to fix it but the freaking thing looks like shit and I think when my sis returns home, she is going to freak out and that is a definite. I'm so screwed. You know the screw sort of got stuck I tried to remove and I got me thumb a slight little cut. CRAP! Nearly EVERYDAY...something must happen to me at least. I am still wondering and little worried what is that SOMETHING HAD HAPPENED on Saturday, which mom is planning to tell us later. Gosh...I really hope it isn't anything that serious...PLEASE! SPARE ME FOR JUST THIS TIME! If not I'm going to hibinate every day and not move to any place but stay at one spot to keep myself out from danger or causing any damages.

Thatz all I have to complain...Shalini hasn't been on lately, no one to talk to...no one to console me at the moment but I understand. It is her exam period. All the best and have fun in it, girl.

TAKE CARE!

VEEL PLEZIER!


Christine.

Day 10 in MEL: What To Do For today?

Woke up about 11 plus and started stoning for a while. I left 12 more days in Melbourne. Well...I got on MSN and surprise surprise...Mr Berendsen was on but talked to him for a short while. He was freaking up late coz he was doing his story, it was an old one which he hasn't finished. He got the story from a song. Blackmore's night. I also spent an hour and half plus talking to Mr Harteveld about places in the world. Was fun talking to him.

I replied to the Twins, very nice of their concern and don't worry, I'm trying to bring myself UP and feel better. After that I read Jar's mail, (to Jar) well...so what if it is just 1.5 years together with them? SHE's mostly in your classes so nothing to be upset. Glad you're having fun and everything is going smoothly for you. Happy birthday to Mrs Steffen in advance (just incase I forget) and erm enjoy your basketball tourney and some dance. About the online thing, I didn't notice you twice but only once and that ONCE, was when I was away doing something and when I returned, : ( you did say 'Hello' and 'are you there' and then you left. *Sigh...* There, I don't hate you and you got me explanation already. :P Well, when I return...we can talk until I start school and then my life is going to be like a roller coaster once more again. Hopefully I don't screw it coz this is my ONLY future.

I want to earn that title, 'CHEF' instead of just being a cook. Hehehehe...I really want to be one, a really good one. Well...I don't know what to do for today. Probably continue with my story.

Mr Berendsen doesn't really like the name Gabrielle, should I change it to Danielle or just freaking leave it? I had already started on page five so it isn't too late to change. There's a reason why I gave him Gabrielle instead of Danielle. His name starts with 'F' and her name starts with 'G' and Mr Coburg's name starts with 'E' and hers 'D'. Get the idea? Hehehe thatz how I work with names at times. I will give this away in my story. Danielle and Gabrielle are twins thatz why I wanted their names to be nearly the same. I could have put, Danielle and Bridget or something...but it doesn't really seem like twins. Mr Berendsen likes the name, Sarah...Mephala and many others. *Ponders for a while* This is my story, I don't care...I'm sticking to the way it is. You do not fall in love with the person's name but for WHO the person is.

OK...other than story, whatelse will I be doing? Er...eat and story, nothing much muahahaha...*Sigh* I pity sis, she has to do SO much work and such. Toughy. I hope tonight I don't have to Skype with my parents. It is really boring and I have nothing much to tell them about here. Say this to them, 'Hmm..yeah, life here is fine...there's nothing much, lotz of shops but trying not to shop too much and yes, I enjoy making coffee for sis. Especially playing with the electronic whisk to make the milk foamy. Blah blah blah...'

Time now is 2:14PM and if anything interesting happens, I'll continue this bloggy later if not, it stops here.

Alright, I didn't do my story in the day because I have no idea why I was so freaking tired. I napped the whole day and at 5 plus I'd decided to shower. In the shower I squat down to clean me arse. I got up too fast, bad bad because we all know that blood can't gush up too fast. I felt blur blur and couldn't hear. I sat down on the toilet bowl seat and the next thing I knew, YIKES! I was sitting on the floor next to the toilet bowl and I think I fainted because I did hear sounds like bang and such. Unexpectedly, I broke the towel bar and toilet paper holder. I freaking have no idea how I did that but WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? Everything is not going my way here and even when I stay indoors, shit can happen too. I don't understand why, usually if I do get up too fast, I would feel a little dizzy but OK but this lasted for quite some time and then fainted for a few secs. Weird. Anyway, tomorrow I'm planning to get the white plaster from DIY store and fix those two things. I feel so BAD for breaking the two things. Coming here, I only cause problems for sis : ( and I don't really want all of this to happen. Time now is 6:43PM. Besides plastering, do you have other ideas or what kind of strong plaster to fix this?


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VEEL PLEZIER!


Christine.

Day 9 in MEL: I Want To Leave...

NOTE: Apart RED as being in love and other stuff but it could also mean, FUMING MAD/ANGRY.

I AM NOT HAPPY WITH THIS PLACE. I DO NOT FEEL LIKE A TOURIST WHATSOEVER...THIS IS TOTALLY RIDICULOUS! Sis checked her mailbox and guess what? WOW IRONICALLY, Christine has MAIL IN OZ! WOW...I wonder who? *Sarcastically*

WHOELSE? BUT THE FREAKING TRAFFIC POLICE...I GOT FINED AUS $51 FOR FREAKING CROSSING WITHIN 20m FROM THE PEDESTRIAN CROSSING! THIS IS TOTALLY ONZIN. THANZ...I GOT KNOCKED DOWN AND NOW I GOT FINED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY FREAKING LIFE! I NEVER LIKE TO MANDLE WITH THE LAW BUT THIS IS TOTALLY BODACIOUS/RIDICULOUS/OUTRAGEOUS etc. (Anyway, somehow I know the traffic police wouldn't let us off just like that, they will definitely fine us for some fault)

Well, we went to the Victoria Market...we actually just wanted a kilogram of bananas but was forced to purchase 3kg of it at AUS $3. Hmm...We got tomatoes, grapes, lettuce, and carrots and then we headed back. Pretty much, I hate this place so much...I don't feel like exploring further or do anything much/stepping out of this apartment. Eversince Tuesday...my day has really been RUINED. I really try to like it here after what had happened but as days go by...it is still the same. Anyway, I'll just stay in and do up my story, I rather be somewhere safe than on the roads of OZ or anywhere outside this apartment. I'll only pick ONE day to go out and just 'snap snap' pics. To Jar, glad you're having a good time and thanz for the emails.

I can't wait to return to Singapore but once I return, I know that school day is nearing...YIKES! URGH...I'm really trying not to let that STUPID fine ruin my day but I think it has.

[Insert next to the arrow with all the bad words I want to say] --> Archterlijke gladiool en Kutgaste!


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Christine.

PS: The police officer has really got a BAD handwriting and they're not high technology. They can't be bothered to type and print out. BLAH! KUT! Said I didn't use the pedestrian crossing...it was a flickering red man! Could someone pass me a HUGE screw and a screwdriver?


Now am so bored, waiting for some people to come online...the ones I usually talk to but now it is sort of early for them. Time now...4:26PM

OK, I got bored and thus I'd decided to draw this out so you people will roughly have an idea how the accident took place. It isn't drawn to scale but it should roughly give you an idea how it happened. Click this -> Stupid Accident...

Day 8 in MEL: Staying In but...

Today, I woke at 11:44AM and showered. Tried to log onto sis’ net but I couldn’t and I tried thrice thus I gave up. All I wanted to do was to check my email and probably Yahoo Mess coz MSN for now isn’t really important.

Well, I couldn’t do anything…I just hope I receive an email from Eric so I could sleep well tonight and not tossing and turning like veg in a salad bowl. Hmm, no net but good thing I brought laptop along so…I decided to do my knight story; I decided to allocate names to the characters and the names of the places. I hadn’t started on my story yet.

By the way, last night was a little sad…Mr Berendsen truly seems like he doesn’t really care thatz the other reason why I was tossing apart the email. Anyway, I heated up the porridge that sis had cooked late last night. I ate and drank and cup of orange + mango juice. I spent a LONG time scrubbing the pot and doing other dishes.

I couldn’t use the net thus, I decided to touch on my story and finally I’m on page ONE of the story and I’d given my story the title…of A Knight’s Tale.

Happy waiting Shalini…I know you have the patience to wait. I’m just hoping to complete it here and not in SG. Coz I doubt I’ll ever have the time to do so and I got to mentally prepare myself that I’ll be starting school soon. URGH..really trying to get Joost out of me head that bugger was actually out of it until Wednesday I talked to him and now he is back in this dumb dumb head.

OK, my bloggy for today is going to be really short.

OH WAIT A MINUTE! Hehehe sis returned and said that my glasses is READY! WOOHOO! I'm no longer 'handicap' and right now I'm getting used to me pair of new glasses. I hope the driver would send sis the cheque or else...SCREW THAT B.I.T.A. Well...erm, later we went to Melbourne Central where sis wanted to check out FCUK (ahem...she spent AUS$ 200+ I think)

Hehehe I think I come to OZ to shop for undies! I went to BNT (Bra N Things) well, I got meself a pair of undie, red with white polka dots I didn't get the bra. Well...after that, we went to TARGET and then AGAIN! I got meself another pair of undie! It is brown and it is SO cute coz it is Chip and Dale with a pic of Dale on the back for me bum bums. Sis got herself a set of PJ again...she couldn't resist it coz it is pink and it is polka dotty.

Went to Jay Jay and got meself a pair of dark sporty brown pants to wear here when cold...Erm, we returned and sis cooked some veg with oyster sauce. She cooked baked rice with KAAS! Thatz cheese ooohhhhh SO yummy! Actually there is some net problem but sis called the system administrator and they gave her a temporary ID and Password to login. AWESOME! If not...no bloggy for today. It'd have been a late one.

Thatz about it...and I think tonight, I'm going to have Peppermint Tea coz I'm in a pretty good mood coz I got an email from sweet sweet Eric and a dear friend, Martijn. Hehehe to Martijn - I don't really wish to eat ice-cream here coz it is COLD! Hehehehe...I hope you're doing fine and I think you should be having your Summer Break REALLY soon so I hope you're enjoying it. By the way, Martijn on behalf hehehe give een kus op de wang for Robin on my behalf. (I'M KIDDING)

TAKE CARE!

VEEL PLEZIER!


Christine.

Day 7 in MEL: Out Shopping and…

I woke up at 12 and showered and got dressed. We headed for the post office to post Joost’s birthday card (I seriously want to get rid of it, out of my sight because it upsets me to think about him) and the receipt of my glasses to the driver. Totally ONZIN that they go by size of the envelope, It didn’t cost AUS 50 cents to send coz sis used a bigger envelope thus it cost AUS $1. What a cheat!

After that we headed to Myers where sis did her shopping. Nothing really impressed me but nice guys clothes but hey, I have no guy to spoil…even if I want to for Tall Guy. He doesn’t want any more tops and as for Eric, I don’t really know his size because I haven’t seen a proper and full pic of him to be certain. I did see a nice rainbow stripy PJ which was really nice but I’d decided not to get because it was unnecessary. Firstly Singapore is warm and if I put it on it is going to be VERY warm or HOT and secondly I think plain t-shirt with boxers will just do and that saves me the cost too.

What is so great about Myers? Pretty boring though the lingerie department is huge but I did see some nice quilt cover sets AHHH…but mustn’t spend unnecessarily. Stupid cashier forgotten to remove the magnetic tag off sis’ CK boxers that whenever we walked pass the security stand it beeped. We were wondering but we didn’t bother until we got back to the apartment and realized that the tag was there. Well anyway, after Myers, we went to have lunchy at Shanghai Noodles/Dumpling Restaurant. There we had steam dumplings instead of the fried ones and a bowl of Combination Vegetarian Noodles. It was FILLING…

Hmm…lunchy and then we went grocery shopping! Sis went to Big W to get 3 packs of Tim Tams and 3 packs of Mint Slice for her guy and then we head over to Safe Way to get milk and OJ.

Right after grocery shopping, we went to Max Brenner and sis had mocha and I had Suckao where by they have it in a white little potty with a candle in it and on top is a metal cup and milk. Aside was a small silver plate containing dark chocolate chips whereby I could add into the milk and stir them in with this metal spoon-straw. Itz unique I must say and erm…I could get refill for the milk. Sis said we spent an hour there but I didn’t feel like it was an hour.

We decided to head back but sis saw Jean West was having a sale so we crossed the road and checked it out. Sis got a nice top and the two of us got the same type of undies! Hehehe but differ in sizes. Well…then we got back! Now me doing bloggy on Microsoft Words before I could transfer to the actual blog. Hmm…I’ll be adding more coz later…I’LL BE MEETING BILIN! She’s from my Secondary school and we had been classmates since Sec 3, 4 and 5. I’m just waiting for close 7PM when I’ll be meeting her outside an Italian restaurant called, Mercadante on Lygon Street.

I’m feeling a little handicap with no glasses on. Sis said I look grouchy and sleepy; well…I can’t help it. It really feels odd not having any glasses on coz I’d been wearing it since I was 6 years old. Alright, am going to get ready to go now will continue bloggy later…

Right, I’d returned and dinner was SO light, I was eating the air of OZ, really filling…

OK, sis was nice to accompany with me to walk along Lygon Street and we left like 6:50PM to meet Bilin at Mercadante. We were there at 6:59PM but she wasn’t there so we walked up and down Lygon Street and back to Mercadante but she wasn’t there…tried calling her but she was uncontactable/unavailable. Well, sis craved for Gelati so we crossed the road and got a small tub of three flavoured ice cream, Mango, Passion fruit and Strawberry aka Aardbei. It cost us AUS 10.80. Well I asked sis whether she could see any Chinese girl waiting outside the restaurant but she couldn’t see so sis tried calling her number but yet again, she was UNavailable. Alright, we walked back to Mercadante to see but no Chinese girl waiting there. FINE…I got stood up. Sis was right that most likely she would be LATE or either she WON’T COME.

Oh yeah, I didn't have tea today. THANZ Jubi for your concern and Martijn for your email :D Well...am I enjoying my vacation? Not so really fun. It is just OK. Take care and hopefully your Maths is OK...well at least a pass. You know once in lower secondary, we could use calculator but I didn't bring. I passed me math so...no worries ;) See you around Martijn and Robin too.

Take care.

Veel plezier.


Christine.

PS: I wanted to write really emotional stuff but I decided to delete it.

Day 6 in MEL: Nothing Much

Woke up at 11:20AM and showered, got changed and ready to post my postcards. Total cost of AUS 8.20 to post. After that, we went to get a new pair of glasses as my previous one got broken during the accident.

Well, in the morning, the driver called to check whether I'm alright and sis told her that I'm fine and would she be so kind to pay for my new pair of glasses. Anyway, we went to Paris Miki to get it done, I actually wanted black frame but I chose the green one instead so then my parents wouldn't notice any difference. I don't want them to know about my accident. Now I have no glasses and I got to wait say...a week plus. Sis bought sushi for me...very nice of her : )

After that, sis went to SafeWay and bought some groceries. Well, later she got a drink which was strawberry flavour from Boost. She shared it with me and it tasted not too bad. When we returned, she had to head for school while I got onto Yahoo and MSN. YAY! Eric was on and I got to talk to him for some time and then I talked to Jeran, Rong, Vinson and some others. Mostly just for a short while.

Was preparing dinner and I talked to Joost for a short while, I'm a little envious about him visiting the Slovenian girl for a month and then she'll come over. It is really nice and sweet of him to do so but :( I don't know. I'm a little upset here and there. I guess I feel lonely.

Mr Berendsen didn't reply to my emails so far and I don't know whether he even bothers. Eric at least showed that he cares and sends me email daily. You know I felt like I was stuck in between two guys. Eric would be the ideal one but sometimes, I always worry that he would be taking me for a ride. I do have trust in him but I'm just so afraid of getting hurt. I've been hurt four to five times and it is really enough for me. It would be a dream come true to be with him and he being my husband. As for Mr Berendsen...I don't know, maybe he isn't really serious about me because like he said, he can ONLY like me not until we meet then he'll know...He has no strong feelings for me. Will I be with Eric forever? Or will I just be a spinster and lead an unhappy single life? That truly sucks A LOT...but I know mom would be grinning from ear to ear.

Sitting here...really bored, I really wonder what is so great about Australia? Oh well...thatz about it.

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VEEL PLEZIER!

Christine.